this is how it feels like...

both @ snow world

A year ago, I never knew why people stressed out, losing their mind, cried, and any other pathetic things just over a break up! I listened to so many hearts broken, and yes, I gave them advices when they don’t know that I never had a teeny winy heartbreak. And how did I do it, well actually I never said anything, they just talk and talk and talk, and when I gave them a comforting lies, they thanked me for supporting and for always be there for them.

For these 24 magical years I’m living my life, never once I ever ignore foods, not sleeping for 48 hours, don’t want to see anybody, don’t want to go out when it comes to a broken heart in relationships. Partners comes and goes, sometimes I’m the one who’s breaking up the relationships, and sometimes my partner’s breaking up with me, but life goes on so I moved on.

Last year, I begin another love journey with someone, it was a delight! Although it was a long distance relationship, somehow we were able to manage all the missing and let it all go when we met again. I have never felt this secure feeling and then a thought cross my mind; this is a mature relationship I have always wanted.

but now, with two days without any messages and calls, I am madly worried, so I message something that is apparently to him my word is vicious and accusing that my love for him is a frail, and something about how easy it is to change white to black in one day. It got me mixed up! How... I mean, how?!?!? Although I’ve explained to him that I never meant it to sound like that, but then, no message whatsoever appeared on my cell phone. it is very frustrating how you can’t reach someone with whatever media provided for a long distance relationship, how you never had a single word of explanation, how you don’t know if this is over or not, and finally, how people can change with only a single word you said to them… (I have this final thought, but I still can’t figure what I’ve said! And now I suspect he is cheating after a break up advice and opinion from my sister)

So, this is how it feels like to be broken hearted…

and now, people might say...
"HA! Finally! now you know how it feels like, BITCH!!"