bye bye bitch

It may not be some kind of a new years resolution. But at least, I’m thinking it’s time for me to change. I don’t really know if it’s possible or not for me to let go of my bitchiful sentiment, but at least I’m going to try my best.

When did it all started? Well, it comes from a dear friend. And I’ve known him since junior high school. I thought he knew I am that bitchy… umm.. Actually he knew, but I think he didn’t handle with it very well. So, just last week, on YM (I kinda forgot what exactly he said to me, but I’m just going to explain the essence of the story). So on YM, he told me that he just downloaded the 2nd part of American Next Top Model cycle 9. And of course I was psyched! I love ANTM sooo darn much! I asked him right away to put it in USB and the next time we meet to bring it. He was on a sensitive mood he told me, so when he felt I was forcing him all the time, he said ‘a simple thank you would’ve been nice’, I knew I should use my manner and said ‘thank you, you are so nice’ in a polite yet sincere way. Instead, I was sort of pulling a joke and said ‘thank you Robertino’ in a making-fun kind of way.

Insulted, he confronted me right away…
‘I’m tired Bobby!’
‘I’m tired of you, you’re such a diva!’

That’s where I knew I was over the line. But still, saving my pride, I yelled back! I kind of forgot what exactly did I say, but I’m sure I said ‘try to say NO to me! If you never told me what you felt about all those things, then how should I know?! I am not a psychic you know!’

Robert, you really are a nice friend! And I’m sorry for treating you like that. Promise that I’ll change (I’ll try my best, just don’t expect too much). So we cool? ;-)

One last thing… Before I’m trying to change a little of my attitude, I would really like to empty my negative thoughts about other people that I hated. So I’m just going to spill it. I’m not going to put names; instead I’ll replace it with numbers…

1. You are so fake! If you don’t really posses something, don’t act like it. Social awareness of you wouldn’t get you anywhere. And I think it has something to do with your immaturity. You and your so-called clique should learn a lot. There’s more to it than just wealth and pride. Some are fortunate, some don’t, some black and some white, and a lot of other differences, but we are all the same human being.
2. You are so stupid! He cheated on you THREE times and still you wouldn’t hear what we’re trying to say to you? Instead you kept on listening to his ‘je ne sais qua’ bullshit. He lived near his boss, his boss is a cheater, what do you expect?! I’m not being negative, but it’s been three times, THREE times! I never want to meddle into others relationship, but you are close to me…
3. I hated you, you hurt my close one! You cheated on her three times and you still have the guts to faced me?! And talk to me?! I hated you the first time you cheated, I felt like I will never forgave you, but then she asked me to cause she loves you so much, and I gave in and welcomed you back. But bastard, you lied, and you cheated again! What kind of animal are you?!
4. You played a lot of games towards me back then. I should’ve known your type, but I was just too naïve I guess. I just don’t understand how human being could be so full of tricks.
5. You talked about him too much! It’s driving me insane… arghhhh… is there anything better for me to listen than some junk about how you realized he was the one that you shoved through my ears?
6. You are cute and I like you. But what did we talk about? Games? star wars? Myanmar?! Uh uh… i gotta tell you I am smart, but I’m not encyclopedia smart OK. I’m lost most of the time when I’m with you. oh, and i'm begging you not to play with my heart! i'm too old for that kind of games anyway! i just needed a goddamn simple relationship! is that too much to ask?
7. You really know how to make me feeling guilty. And I despised you for that.
8. I knew you were into looks and stuff, but you tried to deny it when I confronted you. The question is… would you still have the courtesy to ask me to stay over at your place if I’m overweight? I’m guessing NOT. hey, I’m not judging ppl who are into appearance, I AM anyway one of them… just be frank!
9. You are the greatest. If you don’t own both right and left hand, I would be honored to open doors for you. But hey, you DO OWN them! Stop being such a diva when you knew you’re NOT!
10. You wear too much make up; you looked like a Halloween clown. Did you ever notice that?
11. You cried all the times… my my… Ahhhhhh!!!! Why? You are spoiled little bitch aren’t you?! But it’s ok, you are cute most of the times
12. I have no idea how many times have I told you not to pupu on the pants!! I yelled, I shouted, I ignored, I threatened, even I compared… but you never listen eh? What are you sick or something that you can’t say ‘uncle I want to pupu’?!?! was it too hard for you?! Aside from the pupu thing, you are still my favorite of the two…
13. It’s funny how when we entered your room, we can’t even touch your bed sheet but when it comes to you entering our room… you are just as free as a bird sitting on our beds doncha?? Are you really that selfish slut?
14. You’ve got bigger figure than the others, and me and yes you threatened us vigorously. But you are just a little mini coward when it comes to your friends, am I right? Fucking pathetic loser!
15. Both of you are totally one of a kind, and you are totally made for each other! You both have so many similar personalities and have lasted for years. I envy you on that part. But you both are just an accusing couple who like blaming every negative things to other people, am I correct?! Bitches! Stop pointing your finger at me; you know I could do a lot worse!

It’s really tiring eh, pulling out negative thoughts… ☺
It’s still a long list, but I felt rather sick thinking the negative side of people all at once. This does not include long-lost fake friends; I might be out of control if I wrote about them… anyway…

Lost of Love!

P.S. when I judged the above list people, I do know that I have some negative points too and I’m being self-critical about it. Just reminding, so you’re not thinking that I’m some of those judgmental psycho who didn’t read himself.