Twin-me

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Would it just nice if we have other-we that we can bring to life whenever we like to help us do our stuff?

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I’ve just watched this cartoon (don’t judge, I’m just bored), involved one stupid boy and a cat that’s interestingly comes from the future with blue-colored body and a pocket filled with many magic things. I’m sure you know this character, but I’m having a hard time remembering the title. There, this one little boy seems too lazy to do his homework from school and house work from his mum, so he ask for help from his ‘pet’ friend to pull out something from the magic pocket, something that will help him escape all the duty. It’s a bad thing, and of course the cat disagree and told that little lazy boy to do his duty by himself. Things turn 180 degree when the little boy offered some cake (which apparently the cat crazy about, way to go!). And so, the cat pulled out some sort of mannequin that when u pushes the button, the mannequin would magically turn into you! And that’s when the little boy use the ‘doll’ to do all the things…

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I’m not hoping to have the cat thing or magic from beyond this world whatever, but surely it would make my day if I have one of those mannequins! I don't have to do clean my room, ‘I’ can do it… buy some salad that needs a little walk? ‘I’ can do it… meet with important annoying client? ‘I’ can do it! But of course ‘I’ can’t do what I love to do ;-) dates, party, nice things… hmmm… (Reminds me thou, I haven’t been out in days! ☹)

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Ah well, what harm can a daydreaming do? All I need is my robot twin! (well, living twin would not want to do my things)




Lots of love

Lil'

(the shower)



(even smaller!!)



(her little castle i made she didn't like :-( )


My Karidee is having a baby!

They all so little and very very cute, I only get to keep one, so I take the cutest one and I called her Lil’! She has this very soft grey fur and dark-choc eyes with littlest ear I’ve ever seen. She’s so cute; I even gave a baby shower for her (well only me attend the party). Her size is just like the iCat just for the idea of comparison (as showed at picture above)

But apparently, Karidee’s not treated her very well, for first, even Lil’ have to find the food her self (Karidee suppose gave her), and many other things that tickle my heart to put Lil’ in my room.

So I put Lil’ in my room, I made this cute fake forest so that she will feel like home (sort of), and she don't really liked it! It’s like every time I put her in her own place, she always find her way to crawl into my bed when I was sleeping. It’s not that I don't want her to sleep with me, but I’m just afraid when I’m sleeping, I might broke a bone or two (hers by the way…). And beside she hasn’t toilet-trained!

Unlike Karidee, Lil’s very friendly. Every time there’s someone entering the room, she always shows up from where she’s hiding and play. She doesn’t scared of people and jump and jump. This one time, I was doing my work and didn’t play with her, she actually hide behind the bin and when I called her she doesn’t show up like usual (I guess she’s mad or something). After some begging and 3 boxed carrots later, she’s fine.

She’s not very fond of food thou, she just doesn’t eat much, and that’s what worries me, I’m afraid she’s just sick or something. But then again I think she have this small figure that doesn’t requires as much carrots as her greedy blue-eyed mother!

Last time I took her to the mall with me just to hang out. People are looking at her always and ask if she’s for real. Cause she’s very cute and has this doll-resemblance if she doesn’t move much.

Lots of love

'da pictures...

(Black eyed...)



(nathan's B'day!)

B'day Par-tAyy!!!

( home! dwie, me, nathan, pank & matthew )

Today is my nephew’s – Nathan Alvin Tjio – B’day! Isn’t he’s cute? Well yes he is in pictures looking cute and all that! But facing that little ‘creature’ took your ability to stand the ‘aggressiveness’ and ‘naughtiness’. But here I’m not gonna talk about his negative sides. If you look closely (just not close enough or he’ll poke your eye) he has this amazing skin (or because he’s a baby, but he’s already 3), and he’s very smart, this one time, he actually said ‘it’s my party’ on his birthday! Well it’s actually more like “i-mai-parli”, but we do get it, duh! And many other things that are just close enough to make me believe he’s Einstein’s grand-grand-grand-grand-grand-grand-grand-grand-child! (I’m so exaggerated!)

But he’s not very into me! at least starting this year!

How was it that in only a year or less, someone who you thought likes you, turn don’t-u-dare-hug-me-cold in less than a year? Last year was like me-me-me-me-me and this year no-no-no-no-no! Have a phase people! Businessman wouldn’t like it if his project goes down so fast like that! Duh! No more “uncle bobi”-in-whiny-voices when I come home (or maybe I’m too much at home these days?)

Arghhh!

Anyway, I still love you nephew! Mm…ah!

Lots of Love

Hang Out ?

( try to be dark.. no can do! )


People tend to having their so-called trading-news in coffee shops, for some clique who haven’t met in a long time and live in four different cities (ok, I’m overly exaggerated!) is one thing, but what about 3 people living in the same roof likely having this equivalent needs as the three-gals-from-four-cities…

One says,

“Of course we go out, we need to chat!”

“You can’t chat in your house? Considering you live together…”

“…”

“It’s different, it’s just is…we needed those”

What’s so different? Instead of paying, you just don’t!
If you are a smoker, you can have it just as much when you’re in the house,
You can have drinks also as much, even more if you’re out of cash,
And more of a homey feels…


( @ Hot Stations )

Then it hits me, like old saying see-and-be-seen, they don’t have these needs only for chatting, they need to see some fresh sight and of course max the outfit and make-ups to be seen. (gosh, it’s very basic and I didn’t realize!)

And also you can spot married couple too, either only one or both,
This is another thing, they of course already pass the see-and-be-seen phase (or so I thought!), I couldn’t help but wonder (so sex and the city!) what is it their needs? So I ask one of my fellow person (married couple)

“it’s my boring point!”

“can’t stand the hour at home! Need to get out!”

so, as I get it on my small brain, the word “I do” meaning hot for the first 4 months and then bore themselves to death? (Of course not all married couples! I could be accused for jealousy)

and then there’s this other couple, the husband stays at home waiting for next day to work, and the wife having a night-out with other singles just (as I literally say it word by word from her mouth) to follow…

and again, in this case, as I filtered on my little brain, they married too soon? So they lost their fun-age (if that’s even a word)? And they want to feel how nice it is to hang out and gossip with other singles to catch out some news and hot places?

Lots of Love

I Love Photography!!

( some of my work! )

I can’t tell how deep it is, but I like my work!
Loved it!
My only model which is my friend Elen
she really helps me express my thoughts to a picture
(although she’s not really photogenic, but after 100 frames, we GOT it! Uh-hU!)

And sometimes, I make me my own model, taking picture of myself
(how pathetic or narciss am I?)



Lots of Love

Gay-ish heterosexual men

( tough black 'n white huh?! )

Women get confused sometimes choosing the right men! Some woman agrees, some don't. In this era, where gays are out in the open, they look classy, handsome, total fashion. What every woman wants in a man, including sensitivity (not too sensitive!), But they can’t have ‘em!

Woman should be so happy to hear that these days again, men have evolved one level. They're called the metrosexual (I’m sure this is an old subject, but I would like to re-fresh some thought). They shaved, they clean, and they look as handsome and as fashionable as gay ones.

It comes with a problem though; woman couldn’t differentiate which ones gay and which isn’t.

Let’s say in a hip coffee shop, center of nightlife society, where all peoples from all sexual orientations collide, a group of single women searching for whole-life partner or just to spend the night with whatever bullshits, in a coffee shop, sorry, a hip coffee shop. More experience woman would know which is gay and which isn’t just by looking at the object-of-desire eyes, some book taught many things about this;

first, let me give an example case,
you without-a-doubt looking hot, you see one, one see you, then he turn around and see no more, he’s gay! But if he sees you and see you and keep seeing you, he likes you, translate into straight. although, sometimes you have to see some signs too, you don't keep translate always seeing you to liking you, sometimes they translate to WANT to be you!

See if he’s looking at your sexy boobs or your sexy boots!

What about the inexperience one? Who always sees man the way they want to see and ignore the flowery with bright colors and satin fabric shirt he’s wearing? I want to say poor them, but someone’s gotta help them before they get into a no-point relationships (gay people who refuse their orientation go out with woman just for their image, where sometimes they shakin’ things up with other ‘guys’, and in some cases, they get married with the woman still don’t know about her husband sexual orientation and think of their sexual escapades as an incapability of her husbands wee-wee) these women are just in denial. They will be very upset and disappointed and suicide-sad if they know the truth, and they will find out sooner or later!

Ok, this is really getting out of the subject we’re talking before, so lets go back

So, gay-ish heterosexual men huh?
This species is living one thing for sure, and they’re among us. Yes, you can find this rare species in all the coffee shops that spread all over the city. Slightly, they’re just the same with metrosexual men, but the difference is what we’re talking about. They (the gay-ish thing) just had a little feminine thing going on there. Like pout, high-key voice, etc, etc…

Enough about that, I’m now more interesting about the poor inexperience woman.

It is very easy to know, just read the signs (I keep saying that! But it’s true)

Before, It stops where woman ignore all the man-see-you thing and deny the so-gay satin shirt, now I will tell the third sign if you’ve been conquer by all the signs, it’s what they talk. Men, I don’t know why, so into sports. But lets not go there, cause men are not gonna talk about sports on first date. But they will talk about how beautiful you are (even if you had a lettuce stuck on your braces), it’s all you, you, you and you!

you've got to see the different with me, me, me, me-guy!

“I like your shoes”

“I watch titanic, it got me cry a river"

and then there's this designer-freak,

“is that marc Jacobs you’re wearing?”,

“I got u this prada shoes I bought for you,
you’ll look fabulous!”,

“don't you love how Diane von Furstenberg did for
her winter-fall collection?”,

“SJPs new Alexander McQueen couture is so hot,
I think ruffles is back, you should get one honey!”.

If u still think,
“finally, I got a boyfriend who has the same taste
like me! I love you more!” (o my!)

There’s this fourth sign! It’s very basic and I think every out-there people know it, it’s the way they hold things. Sometimes if u notices, their little finger is going up-fly-in-the-air while they sip their coffee, or holding their cigarettes.

but, If u only finds one sign in a guy, it doesn’t mean he’s gay, probably he’s one of those rare gay-ish heterosexual, but combined all those signs, and you got yourself a pure breed gay man lady!

and ofcourse there's still a lot of signs out there! but i can't really put it all here! you gotta buy my books... (yea right! like i got one..)

Some extra special women still deny it and think of the finger as a cute thing, I just gotta say congratulation! You both will be very happy together and have lots of kids by insemination!

Lots of love!

(Top) (Bot)

( @ me room again! gosh! )

What’s the difference between top and bottom?
For one thing, top is someone who’s putting ‘it’ inside, and bottom is someone who, well, provide ‘something’ to put ‘it’ if u know what I’m talking about

Top is the person who’s in control and bottom is controlled, but these days bottom just making their way up and control. Have you ever heard of ‘women on top’? That’s the situation where bottom is ‘in’ control. Trust me, and trust the survey, men likes it, let’s face it, men’s too lazy to be on top all the time.

Gay society on the other side, slightly same with heterosexual, only, they can work both ways, top could be bot (bottom) and bot could be top, they called it versatile.

But some folks, just capable enough with only one side. Bottom could only perform well being bottom, meaning can’t get it up when forced being top. And the other way around with top.

Enough with these theories lets head to the problem (which not really is a problem)

Since when being bottom in gay society is consider as the bottom-of-the-barrels in the caste of life? People may don’t really think of it much and don’t really realize this, but if u think about it (not worth thinking by the way) being bottom is being the object (literally in sexual vicinity) and top is on ‘top’ of the world.

And more fascinatingly, they agree! By placing bottom as the curse of the cursed. We still haven’t figured it out yet. But one theory caught my attention says (another one! We’re saying men to men gay here) perhaps because men are meant to be men, and being bottom meaning leaning a bit towards the female area so they’re (‘top’ guys) terrified to enter that area. And so, they seem to mock the bottom ones (they need them for Christ sake! I don’t see the point).

One case I’ve experienced, I have this friends (let’s say he’s jack) who’s versatile, he has this so-called life partner (mike) which is top. In trading-news time (always happen at coffee shops), me, another friend (john) and jack were sipping coffee when suddenly john says “you know, mike’s a bottom!” with his keen face waiting for jack’s respond. Was he seriously saying that? So what if mike’s bottom? is that even really a problem? Jack’s a pure versatile anyway! (unless if jack’s a bot, that would be a problem alright! But still not appropriate gossiping about)

It wouldn’t be such a big problem for female to female gay couple, they don't have this urge to be in control, female just like it to be controlled it’s natural, and female who’s leaning a bit towards male would of course love to control. And beside, they don't have this wee-wee malfunction in bed, they always have dildos!

What I’m trying to say here is, I love to make blog and illustrate my thoughts, and I have these thoughts so I write it. What?!
Read it just for fun and if u doesn’t have anything to do! Better yet, don't read it!

Lots of Love

MONSOON season!

( @ elen's apt, and me own room! )

It’s now monsoon season, where the heavy rainfall during summer over Southeast Asia. And yes, for someone who’s got an F on his geology, Jakarta is one of the cities included in the area. And I’m living in one part of the suburb of Jakarta, well known as flood district.
It’s now not yet flood in my so called ‘district’, but rumor has it that in Bogor, it’s flooding everywhere and the dam there could not bear anymore water and they opened the dam gate, so in probably 4 hours from now, the water’s going to flow heading to lower part (which is suburb area, which is my area!). it’s 7.27 pm, and the “water” will “arrive” here around 11.27 pm! Isn’t that a pleasure!
I have experienced flood like 5 years ago, it’s thigh deep flood inside my house, and all the stuff from 1st floor fortunately already moved to 2nd floor, so all the family lives in 2nd floor. And for 6 days, there’s no electricity running! So no air-con! It’s a disaster!
Back then, we have this place to stay at the mall (my brother open some games arcade place in the mall near house), and since both our cars been engine-flooded, we have to walk from our house to the mall with flood everywhere! Yea it’s close by car, but by walk it’s horrible, especially with dirty water on your legs! Me, my sis fang, my sis due and my auntie back and forth from mall to house everyday for 3 days cause on the 4th and 5th days, there’s this rumor of a crocodile running free in the water, so our mother tell us to take ‘boat’ in the road! Picture it! It’s hilarious! And so for my dad and mum, they stay at home, they feel more comfort staying at the house than the mall.
Escaping that certain condition is overwhelmingly great! Especially the part where the lights on! I’m not hoping the situation will have a ‘re-‘ apply! Certainly not now! Lets just hope the water go somewhere heading sea or that we have a great water-pumps to ‘deliver’ the water back to where it belong, the canal!

Lots of Love

Long distance relationships...

( @ me own room beibeh! )

Long distance relationship as I quote from so many people “it’s hard”, “trustless”, “what’s the point?” and so on and so on… I don't know if they’ve experience bad things with it or they just being “smart-ass” about it, they always been negative.

Someone who’s inevitably cons with long distance relationships says “I prefer something real in front of me than some text messages”.

At first, I thought that way too, you know, how it can be very distressing when u know they’re there, breathing, talking, but far away from you! Can’t touch ‘em, can’t feel ‘em up, even you got these technology ahead of time like mobile, short message, multimedia message, you name ‘em! Sometimes network can become a pain in the ass! but then, there is always a mail you can count on, but can u open it all the time when you’re so busy with this work thing you’re doing?

And not only that can be a rock-on-a-road, people, especially two committed individual, where they are far apart, one can be curious about what other doing, one could think other may say these things but other could easily lie taking advantage of the situations, and it works the other way around.

And when this happens, jealous is on the menu, it’s water, people drink it everyday! But then, if there is nothing else we could do to make this better, trust always help.

People don't like it when they’re being distrust, it’s common sense, when one distrust other, other feeling insulted then other turn to distrust one. Whatever that means, you don’t want that to happen!

Just trust, they say they’re out with their family, trust them! They go have some project with thee friends, trust them! They’re out playing golf with thee boss, trust them!

However, u cant be too stupid to trust them when they say they can’t contact u for a week cause their mobile is low-bat.

Just plays along, read the signs, and don’t be too paranoid!

Lots of Love

the best and the worst year!!!

(@ Suzhou's garden near the tower, hotel room, and cold beijing!)

I’m having the best year-end holiday, yes, on 28th December I’m leaving on a jet plane. I’m having a blast new year, having someone I care beside me. Just when I thought I could not be happier, I’m not getting any happier! It’s not a good start in the year 2007. First, I lost my passport, for that, I have to take 12 hours train to Beijing to get my temporary passport, so I went there. It’s Friday, it’s freakin’ cold, it’s almost snowing, my feet got wet, it’s just not nice (thank god he’s always there beside me!). So, embassy said I have to collect some prove letter from the immigration office in Indonesia. So I ask my sista to get the letter and fax it to me, until then, I have to wait. Waiting is crazy, so I went to Mc D’s to have some lunch (anyway it’s lunch time, the embassy’s not open until 2 P.M!). then due & fen faxed it around 4.30 P.M, I went loco! Cause the embassy, as I know, closes at 5 p.m. u can guess, I’m late, I can only give all the data they asked before. And it’s Friday! As commonly known, Saturday and Sunday is not a working days, so I have to wait til Monday. so Monday I go back there, do a little interview, thinking I might get it today so I can go back to suzhou! Nope, HE think I should suffer more, so HE gave me another 3 days waiting. Thank GOD! Ok, so Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, I got the passport temporarily, Thursday evening I fly to shanghai, grab some dinner with Seans friends, then by taxi go to suzhou to finally meet him (after a while loss-cuddling). Ow, by the way, yea, another ‘great’ things, on 9th january, which is Tuesday, when I’m in Beijing, I kinda was suppose to having my final presentation thou’, but yea, since I’m in Beijing and I’m not there at my University, guess what, I missed it, yea how ‘HAPPY’ I am!!!! ☺ ☹ Ok so go back to Thursday evening, couldn’t stop cuddling! And next day, Friday, I have to do my visa again, it’s fast, it only took like lunch time, but it cost so much! So I got my visa, then sean make reservation to garuda, fly for Saturday. Cos im heading to Jakarta from shanghai, so I have to go back to shanghai again leaving sean ☹. Arrive at shanghai around 5 p.m. then went to the hotel, then around 7 p.m seans friends, david and Lawrence, pick me up to have some seafood, umm hairy-crab, looks interestingly yucky, but taste very nice, the egg was very juicy, yummy! Then, went to coffee bean grab something to drink, and sean’s arrive! ☺! Yea! Then we went to guandi (suppose one of the most popular club in shanghai), and the song’s very very nice, unlike any club in Jakarta which mostly trance (I have nothing against trance, I just don't really like it, some people crazy about it, it’s subjective), getting a little drunk (I cant really drink), went to hotel around 3 am. Leaving the hotel for airport around 6 am.. very sad, china’s been great, although a lot of ups and downs, strutting a long the streets, the lake, the malls… most of all being with your ‘love-company’, LOVED IT SO MUCH! And so, arrived at Jakarta, the apple of my eyes (?!?!), and it's a hot day (great!), hey, turns out, my misery continues, I cant have my final evaluation, so I have to wait for next semester and it’s in June so goodbye graduation on May! It DOES NOT stop there, I left my job, I only got half my salary from last month I work there (they seems happy to take what’s belong to me, my Salary!!), credit card people wont stop calling me (hellow, I was away, and lost in china! Chill out!), this sucks, 2007’s not my year (how Ironic, 7 is my number!) thanks again up there! I wont complain again, this is my last! These days, my life rolling a little bit up, I got freelance jobs from my friend (helps a little on my income), I can use my old project for my final evaluation on June (so I don't have to do it all over again and just present on the presentation day!!), which I’m looking forward! I’m just gonna lived up my life now! Missing u so much now baobei! Mm…ah!

Lots of Love

this is an old blog i posted on January 26th, 2007

Using coffee shops precisely!

( me & robert @ coffee bean )

You were trying so hard to enter a place to hang out cause of traffic problems (which is the most common reasons for people being late), and then there’s a parking lot fits for at least 100 cars in the place where you can find 1000 people, each driving one piece. Takes you an hour, two hours, even three hours in peak days like Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. And when you’re finally get a park, which quiet a distant from the coffee shop and you think it’s ok, you find no seat available even in the non-smoking area! It’s even more ironic that you’re using home outfit in a place where you might bump into a hot guy (it’s off the record!) Why is it, these days, getting one coffee is full of twist and turn! Are people don’t realize how much it is for a cup of coffee? perhaps they have too much money that they need to waste it for a single cup of coffee. Then again, where am I? At least I’m here waiting for my sister to pick me up. I’m not judging (yea right!), but what about anybody else, who I spot sitting alone, nothing to do, listening to some music, doesn’t seems waiting for someone, then it hits me! He’s me 2 years ago! Just hanging out alone, sipping coffee, and ‘hunt’ for ‘prey’ to spend the night with! There you go! (Who am I deceiving, I did it like months ago! Not in particularly same way though).

Lots of Love

it's an old blog i posted on October 31st, 2006

30.10.2006

( @ work! see how nothing-to-do there! )

Work in stores, when there’s no customer, there’s nothing left to do except re-do the jeans, display, hanger, etc. and when everything’s done, seriously, nothing else to do. So in these superfluous times, I’d rather take a little nap under cashier, and left my half eyelid opened just in case a customer enter (anyway there’s always another workmates to helped). It’s like my eyes involuntarily heavy around 1 pm ~ 3 pm. After that, I felt so fresh that my body’s won’t stop moving, perhaps I’m a little exaggerated, but it’s like I’m dancing to a song follow another songs (no customer cases), and when I felt tired, I started re-doing the jeans, display, etc. after 6, usually times move fast that suddenly it’s time to change and go home. It’s like that most days in the stores. If you feel like working in stores might be fun, no, it feels so boring and tiring, but if you insist, just pretend having a good times and you’ll get used to it. And if your present aware by other fellow stores, keen enough to handle the tittle-tattle you might get from them. They might look nice to your face; you don’t know what they’re saying when you’re absent. A word of advice, think of them as added species in your world always works (at least for me).

Lots of Love

it's an old blog i posted on October 31st, 2006

Adam and Steve...

Weekends and feeling weary just to hang out and watching midnight show. Would it just perfect to stay alone at your own bed? And besides, someone’s waiting for me home, and so I drive my deadbeat remains home. It’s 10.00 pm and I go online. It’s 11.30 pm and I got nothing else to do besides staring at one side of the wall and blank. I decided to clean my room after half an hour waste of time for nothing. There, under a pile of CDs, I found a movie that I just borrowed and watch last week, ‘Adam & Steve’. A great movie, funny yet romantic, light yet meaningful (at least for me), controversy yet it’s real. It’s an old movie but I just knew it from my friend. I just watched it last week, and still missed it, so I watched it again for the second time. I feel so inspired in many ways by the movie, I feel like there’s more than just a relationships. All I knew about relationships in all my life was propaganda. Coz, in relationships, as I quote, we always project this image of ourselves that’s completely opposite from who we are. And this is because we’re just afraid we won’t be loved for who we really are! It’s sad, but true. When we’re doing it, they’re doing it too. And most people (we and they) look for the person who has the least amount of flaws, and then we/they find someone who we/they think is about as perfect as we/they can get, and when the relationship runs in quiet a long time, all of the sudden we/they just realize we/they don't know this person. And when this happens, all we need is truth! Why waste all these times when inside you knew you can tell truth from the beginning? Then again, what can a man like me say, cause I think it’s hard too! We were always doctrine to do things like this to our casual relationship. And all we need is only time. Anyway, I endorse ‘Adam & Steve’ to ya’ll! Cause it’s a great movie! And so romantic the way he proposed..



~

Perhaps I had a wicked childhood
Perhaps I had a miserable youth
But somewhere in my wicked, miserable past
There must have been a moment of truth
For here you are, standing there, loving me
Whether or not you should
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good
Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good

MY GOD!!! But I don’t hope it’ll occur to me. And a beautiful wedding!



Love ~ John Lennon

Love is real, real is love
Love is feeling, feeling love
Love is wanting to be loved
Love is touch, touch is love
Love is reaching, reaching love
Love is asking to be loved

it's an old blog i posted on October 31st, 2006

when personal intrudes professional...

So, where do I begin…
Friends…

When friends works with certain friend,
Sometimes they got blurred out understanding
Which is professional?, which isn’t?
Which is personal?, which isn’t?

And when personal intrudes professional…
That’s where problems begins...

Professional controlled by rational, and
Personal controlled by emotion..
And its very flexible
Either you want professional by emotion
or personal by rational…
But If rational and emotion mixed together,
What comes is chaotic, just don't make any sense!

This way of thinking was boxed up from
Long before year 2006..
But people these days no longer use emotion often
In All the things they do they use rational
That’s why business between friends these days works just fine
At least that’s what western living people do..
What about eastern? Asian?
Whom I’ve heard still needs emotion…
No wonder, considering all the ‘pouring tears’ movie produce here!
It's a good thing if you work in a movie business
What if you work in other business?

If u work with friends professionally
and got mixed up with personal life,
especially when you use emotion
its just won’t do!
Coz ups and downs in personal life
Should not intrudes professional
If it is, it wont be fair!
Both to the team or the leader..

Why to the team?
This is the case when leader
Mixed personal with professional…
Leader have their own personal life
When it hits the ground
Sometimes, They need some place to yell
To Whom?
the one who works for him/her,
number one on the list.
one of most cases.
everybody has a personal things,
when the team works just fine,
why do leader has to yell?
Perhaps personal reason, no one knows…
not just because leader pays
so he/she could do whatever to the
team a.k.a his/her own friend

why to the leader?
this is the case when the team
mixed professional with personal…
When the team had enough of the yelling
They automatically spread rumors
The bad ones to personal surroundings
One of most cases.
(Truthfully speaking, I was one of them.)
professional works should be handle professionally
when we’re wrong and got yelled
it’s because we were wrong!
Don’t pout and share to other friends!
Cause when we do, we already mixed professional to personal
and the effects is much stronger than we think!

when this thing has been played too long
too much rumors spread, too much feelings hurted
friends won’t last…
it’s better saving friendship than work
last Friday, salute to the leader who
realized it before it went too far and ended the team
for saving friendship…

what I’m disappointed was, why he’d have to leave
just like that without any enough explanation
which brings confusion to the ‘ended’ team…
I’m curious, was he saving friendship? or
Saving his own dignity?

One more thing…
Playing sides?
I was shocked to death when he’s leaving…
Like kitten hunger for fish,
All the one who’s on his sides followed him!
Leaving the ‘ended’ team…
What was that?!
Were they real friends?
Or playing friends?
are you sure u don't wish for enemy?

And so for the ‘ended’ team…
Left without explanation…
Left in confusion…
But still… talking nasty
Perhaps because they don't really understand
The meaning of ending the team,
That’s why in confusion they talk bad
especially about the last sentence
That came out from the leader,
Accusing…? hellow!?

My personal review…
That day, same occasion...
I have never been so INSULTED in my whole life!

People may accused other people..
I understand and don’t mind
Being accused for something at that moment…
because of misleading...

But when someone TALKS to me,
I was kinda HOPING that someone FACED me, not to OTHERS
My friend said let it go, and I tried, but I CAN’T!
Who the hell is he?
Saying he would change, yea he is changing, more IMATURE!
I’m just glad the others don’t do it (although im feeling a little out from the group),
cause in mannerism, When u talk to someone it’s best to look each other…
but for people who’s IMATURE, I don’t think they learn enough!

Peace!
And friends forever...!
but some people don't agree…
o well, just keep it open!

it's an old blog i posted on October 21st, 2006

~ Friend ~

( christmas party @ novotel 2005 with friends )

I have this friend
I know from one
I hurt one
This friend no longer my friend
Is this the new trend?
Or people just being negative?
Or people these days just stop growing?
And this is not at all complicated
This is just so 6th grade!
to all my friends
i will have new friends coming
and so will you all
but once i called u friend,
you will always be my friend!

people do get bored!!

~ 王 世 豪 ~

once i have said...
on my late blog 'what is romantic?'
there i said by being romantic is not always
by softly and gently touch each other (non sexual way! dont get too exited!),
talking love and care... but by yelling which defines a new way of romantic..

then again, recent me realize this needs,
the needs of having a little word of love,
care and being cared, extra attention...

well, perhaps now i dont really agreed with
my late blogs again...
but people do change
ok, not change totally,
i still need the yell thingy..
but not all day, all week, all month, all year long!
people like me, do get bored too!

at the point where i cant take it anymore
i have to let them go
and this is the point..
the point of no return
and living my life the way i like it
where i dont have to change my styles
to fit in one group or so,
where i dont have to say pretty
then talk behind,
where i dont have to pretend im having it all
but all i have is none,

i dont folllow what others wants
i follow what i wants!
and if other dont like it,
might as well others stay away

~

People will always judge
Of course it’s ok!
Coz I judge people too!
Of what I’ve done recently
People may judge and some already judge me!
I really don't care.
If just because im happy now and people said im mean,
Then I will say ‘I am mean!’
Not only people, even me, I will say I’m mean and heartless
For what I’ve done!
I’m selfish! So, if that’s the way for me to be happy!
I will do it… And in some case, I already do it!

Lots of love!

it's an old blog, i posted on October 10th, 2006

we need white lies!

( me with dewi, tommy's b'day parteey @ manchester united and my b'day parteey @ hardrock )

family

family is one thing that never ran out of your life forever... cause family is the source of anything. without my family, i'm nothing. i do realize that... but at some point, you just can't stand the rules at home, and you just want to leave wherever you might go, and bravely said "i can live with or without you!!" to your parents, when inside you were calculating things to make a living of your own.

sometimes you've had a rough, hard times with you family, it's a normal things thou'
and sometimes you missed them so much... but you don't have to play your emotion on the go, fast like fire and just leave like that... you know they (parents) don't really mean what they said... they're just doing that to make a strong look out of themselves, but inside they feel guilty by harming you. that's what parents all about...

white lies

lie. it's a negative word... especially when you "lie" to your family or friends or your love one...
ask anybody... nobody likes being lied...
but at some cases, we needed lies to survive... that's where "white lies" being useful

(FYI, it's only a sample, like a perfume sample, it's only a simple way to smell what's the essence not the real one!)
eg. you want to buy something very expensives, and you know your parents would've been mad knowing you spent so much money on a little bag..... that's when you need white lies by saying someone bought it for you.... positive point is, your parents doesn't have to yell hardly (which makes them older and tired and out of breath) and you don't have to cover up your ears with tissue (you know it hurts your ears)...

main point is, you have all the times in the world playing with your lifes, doing whatever you want to do with your lifes, without your parents knowing by doing white lies... (but you know to behave, don't do drugs!!!) they don't have to know, keep them happy, makes you happy

Lots of Love!

this boring life i've had...

(guys @ sepuluh organizer!)

i have nothing to do but going to college and stay at home, the only thing i'm happy about my life is that i have someone that cheers me up when i'm bored.. EUGH!! the bored word again!!! and that someone.. you know who you are.... and for that, thanks very much.. i love you

one problems solved, and another comes, somehow i feel like what i have in life is only problems,
that what "17th" me used to said. but "21st" me said "that is not a problem, that's just a little things for you to get on with your life, to experience, for your knowledge and mind, to explore how deep life is"

and then another said "for christ sake, your just a little boy! don't even pretend you're a grown-up living in this world of pain, you don't know what love really is, what you know is puppy love, you don't know what life is, what you know is playing life as u used to play when you're a kid, you don't know what hate is, what you know about hate is just a part of your anger"

people judge what other people said... that's what people about.

friend of mine told me " i don't judge people!"
but does he/she know, only by saying "look at what she's wearing!!!" he/she is JUDGING people?!?!?!
nobody is perfect. just like a brand of bags that were popular during high school.
well, "17th" used to said the same thing, even more!
i used to said "i don't like it when people do this.. that... bla bla bla", few days later... i do this.. that... bla bla bla.... HUH! GOTCHA!
hey, not only "17th" me, even "NOW" me sometimes do such things....
see, even right this very moment, i JUDGE people....

so i guess, we really can't say bad things about other to our "so-called" clique, when sometimes maybe we do the "bad" things too. unless.... unless, when that other is very very annoying that you and your CLIQUE can't even tolerate it anymore ;P hehhehehe