5.22.2007

it's back?!



I just gain some knowledge that play childish chatting game is back! (As we all know, there’s only 40% truth on the IRC) most common is a fake name (I play those on my early years, but they still do that these days?), and fake pictures (to entice person who’s into cutie, like me, haha!) sometimes they used Asian celebrity pictures (amazingly some people enticed, idiot!). But here, I’m not talking those basic games. I’m talking about this game (not that basic but still is) created by using those basic games I talked earlier…

And please don’t judge me for chatting too much lately (I’m single and have nothing to do, it’s only natural!)

~D Playa
It’s called, play somebody else’s identity. Somehow, you found out that one nickname belonged to your ex or the person you missed or even the one you hurt. Sometimes, there’s this feeling that you wanted to know how’s that person holding up without that person have to know it is you the one who asked (you don’t want to risk your oh so mighty pride). That’s where you come up with new nick, and query that person and introduce yourself as Theodore when your real name is Ujang ;-P and of course, most people (that I know of), will ask for picture trading. It’s easy, you can just use someone’s blog that has picture in it or Friendster is much easier (remember to pick the cute one). Then it’s time to fill in your curiosity by asking some questions you need to know (but not too obvious and play it smart).

~D Played
You will not noticed it first when you’re chatting, but after a while, you realize that there’s something that does not add up to the stories that person told you earlier (yes, they could be so clever plotting stories, but they made mistakes too) and please don't underestimate me! I invented them!

Oh, and there’s a lower level for ‘fake pictures’, it’s a ‘touch-up’ pictures! Yes, these days, photoshop is so in, everybody’s (including me) using it! Smoothens your face? Done! Annoying pimples? Erased! Over-sized lips? Make it smaller please! Sexy cheekbone? Uh huh! Nothing to worry about the guilt of lying to people, it’s you! (Although after a couple ‘plastic surgeries’) it’s still you! You will have more chances getting phone numbers! Trust me! Although, you must be careful the time you finally meet up. You need to level up the expectation. Maybe, covering your face with huge sunglass? Go figure! (I warned people already, and I’m saying it again, all ma pictures are edited, my gratitude to photoshop! Don't even try to meet me!)

Ahh… games… can’t live without ‘em!

Lots of Love!

5.20.2007

History has said...



Among an ancient Greek civilian, not only homosexuality is allowed, but also valued. Slim young body, like boys have, was a form of an ideal beauty for ancient Greek male, and numbers of statues and paintings built to honor. Ancient Greek believed that homosexuality must be honored, held in higher level of pride and gives the inspirations for youth to joined the community. They also consider that young gays has shows that they’re very brave, and an accomplished heroes because they fought ‘for love’ (what?!?!)

Roman empire, Julius Caesar is illustrated as a man of ‘all women’ and a woman of ‘all men’.

When the Christians not approved of this homosexual non-sense and experienced that God destroy the Sodom city, to punished the homosexuals, the homosexual hides on their closets and never shows their nose in public ever since.

In the reign of queen Victoria, government refuse to believe that homosexual ever existed, even if they existed, the government consider that as a devil work and will be heavily penalize. When we enter the 21st century, most oldies still believed that homosexual is an abnormal behavior. The facts are that homosexual is already beginning when the male embryo didn't consume enough testosterone. Among the primates, homosexual behavior utilized to bond some group or a form of discipline that shows respect from youth to the elder.

Lots of Love!

Genetically Involved



I just found out, that being gay is not a choice. It’s more like genetically influenced. Ha?! What do you say of that?!

Research has shown that, basic form of human body and brain is female at first. That’s why men have the typical body form like woman, like nipple. Men also have breast milk that’s not functioning but still got the potential to produce some. Thousands of cases about prisoners who produce breast milk from his nipple. That time, a great starvation caused illness that made malfunction liver and devastate their significant hormone for producing breast milk.

As we all know, six to eight weeks after the fertilization, a male embryo (XY) obtain large amount of male hormone called androgen, which first create scrotum (testis) and on the next doses, they transform from female brain to a pact of male brain. (We do know that male and female brain is completely different right?!) And if the male embryo didn't consume enough of male hormone on the right time, that baby boy might be born with a set of brain that’s a bit towards feminine than masculine. In other words, that baby boy might be gay on his puberty. Or, in some cases, a boy who's genetically a male, but with completely female brain pact with men ‘tools’ if you know what I’m talking about ;-) this boy at certain age will become a transgender, biologically male with female feelings. Even sometimes, this person born with two sets of genitals.

Surroundings hold a very small part for our behavior than we ever thought they did. Scientists find that actually there’s no outcome at all from the attempts parents did trying to suppress the homosexual behavior of their juvenile or adult sons. And the main reason is the lack of male hormone on their brain; that’s why most homosexual is male. (For female to become lesbian, they {female embryo XX} have to consume extra androgen/testosterone)

Sexual experts agreed that homosexual is an orientation that cannot be change. Most researchers believed that homosexual developed inside fetus, so the pattern of homosexual strongly built at the age of five, and that happens out of that person control. For centuries, many ways have been developed to suppress the homosexual behavior in ‘suffering’ ways, such as severing breasts, medicine therapy, front-brain surgery, mental therapy, shock therapy, spiritual consultation, unleash the ‘demon’ from the body, etc…
Not even one succeeded. The best result they achieved was to make some bisexual to restrain their sexual activities so they only do it with the opposite sex or to force the homosexual to be single forever with sin and fear, even push them to commit suicide.

Other research regarding gay sexual preference by National Cancer Institute has shown that homosexual built genetically. From collected statistics about families’ gene from 114 gay men shows that there are three times chances that parents, cousins, and the uncles, is also gay.

Mouse, a mammal that’s commonly used for research. They have the same hormones, genes, and core system just like human, but their brain’s not developing when still inside the fetus like human. if we give an androgen/testosterone to a female newly born mouse will cause that mouse to act aggressive like a male and hump any other females. All this transforming brain can only be done when the brain is in the stage of embryonic. The same methods applied to an adult rats, birds, and monkey indicated failed to create the same results because their brain has already strongly built while in the fetus.

Turns out, human testing about transforming brain is already been done in Russia! These experiments regarding human’s brain converting in some times. The result is the same as the mouse experiments. They changed boys to girls and girls to boys by changing their brain while they’re still inside the fetus by giving male hormone. Those researchers create gays, lesbians, and transsexuals. There are times when the embryo does not consume enough male hormones or consumed the hormones not in the right time. The result is a boy with two genitals.

While pregnancy, if the testosterones squashed and the embryo is a male, there’s a great chance the baby boy is gay. That thing could happen because it’s the female hormone that’s used to build the brain in the first place. An anxiety, tension pregnant woman will generate six times more chances of having a gay baby boy. And if it’s a female, then the baby will be a very feminine woman.
We all know the danger of alcohols and nicotine for pregnant woman also the positive effects of food control and free life from all tensions. New research by experts such as Dr. Vivette Glover in London’s Chelsea Hospital shows that a tension pregnant woman gave birth to a baby who can’t live under pressure. Dr. Glenn Wilson from Psychiatrics Institute in London, said “Certain chemical medicines could agitate the function of testosterone and the result is a gay baby boy”
If the embryo carried a female genetic (XX) and the brain consumes enough male hormones, then she will born a female with a brain working like a male. As teenager, this female usually called tomb-boy and they play harder than any of her girlfriends. They tend to produce more hair than any other girls on their puberty, also have a greater ability to play ball. As adults sometimes they called themselves butch. Most of them become lesbians. The consume of male hormone sometimes unintended did happened, such as when the pregnant woman drink a medicine that hold a large amount of male hormone like contraception pill, diabetes pill, and other medicines.
One research of a diabetes pregnant woman in the 50s and 60s shows that there’s a lot of cases about a female that turn lesbian on their puberty because they consume too many male hormone from the diabetes medicine her mother used while the development of the brain inside the fetus.
The same thing also happened, where the research shows that a pregnant woman that consume too many female hormone / estrogen with the hope of helping the pregnancy, have five to ten times more chance of having a gay baby boy.

So, after all these experiments by some graduated professors, and researchers, and the experts in everything, you’re not still thinking that gay is a choice right? It’s all genetically involved!

Lots of Love!

5.19.2007

Woman



I’ve heard, people (woman) actually said that they have these theories that they’re actually just something that can be inherit. As I literally wrote it by their words “woman frequently considered as something that can be inherit. After childhood they belonged to their father, then they belongs to their husband, and after that, they belongs to their kids”

Is that true? Or stupid? (Hell, I think that’s plain stupid)

Woman… oh woman… how do they expect to have their emancipation if that’s their way of thinking. No wonder how men rules over thousands of years and thought of woman as end-of-day bonus.

Yes, they belonged to their father, but do they even think that they belonged to their mother also? A woman! And belongs to their husband? Did most wives think of themselves that way? I’m sure western people didn’t thought that way, take Desperate Housewives for example, the movie was based on how housewives in America did their lives, every problem they’re facing, every errands they run, and sometimes they’re desperate, but I guess not as desperate as woman here who thought they’re some kind of ‘stuff’ their parents inherit. If you watched the movies, you will see that the relationship between both wife and husband were equal. Because each of them know what they’re duty on the first place. Husbands working and wives taking care of the house and kids, and sometimes it goes the other way around, like Tom and Lynette, Lynette’s working while Tom watching the kids. How was it that they (women here) still even thought of themselves some sort of legacy?

And on the same page, they also said “once I thought, maybe just when we die, woman could really, really be herself. But that thought definitely was a mistake after I had my second semester. From Greek mythology, I found out that when woman were born, they’re cursed by Artemis, they’re whole lives will always to sacrifice herself”

Now this is getting nowhere! They even believe an ancient mythology? (Now I’m curious if she’s one of those ‘blast from the past’ people). You’re living in a world where you can dial up for visual sex for Christ sake!

Oh, and here’s something funny…

“Ah… even when they’re dead, a woman never really own herself, but God owns them, they’re cursed to be an angel to decorate heaven, fulfilling men sexual needs”

Oh crap!

Lost of Love! (Definitely those women were lost!)

5.16.2007

Lo.ne.ly



Have you ever finds that you feel so lonely in a crowd? Some said, perhaps because we never really know that crowd… hell, that crowd is my own family! I guess, only one answer to that, you don’t have a partner!

Why is it that we needed partner so bad? We do have family and friends! And so, even though we do have partner, what do we usually do? Dating? Then what, movies? Then, if we haven't found ourselves a partner, instead of dating or movies, we can always spend our extra time hanging out with our friends or movies with family. So what makes it so different?

Denying, we’re in desperate need of that! Ignoring that even though friends and families always there for us, they have a life too. Guess we can't really be too selfish to dominate on their lives. And that’s where we found ourselves really lonely. Who to blame? Our self who Pathetically couldn’t even find a partner, that’s who! Well, can't really blame me, actually, for not having a sensitive side that’s needed to understand when I’ve tried so damn hard! I am too selfish anyway; wonder if that makes me a terrible boyfriend? Of course!

One friend, I asked to define what true love meant to him, he said, (with my words, apparently his words were too dense)…

True love is for us to love our self and to accept for who we are, never have doubts for us… when we reaches that point, we meet someone who feel the same way about themselves like we do. Cause if we don’t love our self, how do we expect to love other? It goes the other way around.

Anyway, love is too complex, we can’t really said anything about love. New problem come after a solved problem right? Life’s always is!

Why am I always writing about love is out of my own control! I am, in fact, tired about all this, I have always remind myself to stop all this, yet, here I am, talking this lonely bla bla, for the reason of love!

Lots of Love!

5.12.2007

FINE, I THOUGHT WRONG!



I have uttered on my late blog that I still maintain friends with my ex-es cause I think (that’s me who’s thinking) it’s ok to become friends with your ex. So, without thinking any further, I just message them as usual, calling up for coffee, asking things I knew they’re the expert, and when they asked me to go out with them having dinner, I said yes. Am I wrong? That’s what friends do right? (at least that’s what I thought)

One of my friend, my ex, whatever, ask me to have some late coffee recently, it was around 9 PM, I have nothing to do anyway, so I said yes. At first I really enjoy it, I share some stories about my recent ‘break ups’ and he told me story about his love-journey with all three men at once. Then he said he’s in some sort of dilemma… I thought it was about that third men who’s apparently liked him so much but he didn’t really have the feelings. So, as Friend, I gave him some advices that’s apparently all his friends already gave (nothing I can do pretty much eh?) but he said that’s not the problem he’s facing right now… at that time, I knew where that was going, but pretending don't know a thing, I just ask him what’s wrong…

As usual, the drama of his life was reminisced! As if I haven’t heard of that enough, he kept on reminiscing the old days of ‘us’ together back then! But, as polite as possible I just nod and drink and nod and smoked… proximately about an hour until he finally reached his point that he still has certain feelings for me and wanted me back! Already knew, but I acted surprised (I did well)

I told him, all this times that we’re (me & him) apart, even though I had ups and downs on some relationship, never once I ever think of getting back together with him. Why? I never told him this, but I still think he’s still immature in someway and still as fake as that LV bag I had. All the words that came out from his mouth, all that stories, it was all devious… and I knew him for one and half year… so I knew that’s his best feature.

He’s in denial and still thinking I would think of getting back together… and then he said what’s with all that messages and phone calls to him if I’m not planning on getting back together… I told him couple of times, that’s not giving hope, that’s just a friend asking one friend about something!

Again, as a friend, I gave him some advices. I have always thought, if someone’s breaking up with you and you’re still in love to that one person, it’s best if you stay away from him as far as possible, never contact and avoid all places that you think you might bump into him… what did that do to me? I still can't sleep at night, blank all the time… so I called my always friend Elena for comfort and of course to share… she said, all I did was wrong and stupid! She said, that I’m just avoiding the inevitable, the problem itself, rather than facing it. So she told me, if I wanted free from this problem, I have to face it. As I quote her, ‘be his friend, at least you can still see him, and you’ll see it yourself that he’s not giving any hope for you’. Make sense actually… if I make friends with him, he’ll tell me stories about his new man, first maybe irritating, but if it goes and goes and goes… that’s when I know I have no hope so I can move on!

So that is exactly what I said to my ex, be friends with me… he’s still saying how everybody else can get their second chance but not him… I’m getting pissed, I told him harshly, all that people he’s illustrated were still have feelings for each other, that’s why they can get back together, but not us…

And so, I thought that him and me cannot be friends anymore, and I told him that. He nodded. Then he asked me not to contact any of his friends, cause if I do, all his friends will sort of ‘report’ to him about me, and that’ll make him sad. But of course! I’m not really close to all his friends anyway…

I guess, I thought wrong, how you can't be friends with your ex who's apparently still have feelings for you! But, for me, even though (IF) I still in have feelings for my ex, I really want to make friends with them, I think I can face the fact… No, I have to face the facts than to refuse it!

Lots of Love!

5.11.2007

Love you anyway...

It’s 10 PM
And you’re late again
And I can’t understand
What kept you so long?

Now look at you
Wearing that shirt again
Don’t you realize
How ugly that thing is?

Here it comes
You complain again
Complain about everything
It’s driving me mad!

But even so
I love you anyway
No matter how things have gone
You’ll always have me

5.08.2007

Pets



Accessories or friend?

A Chihuahua dog named Tinkerbell. I’m sure many people know this one, he’s (or she’s, I don't know) quiet popular among the media. Many newspapers or magazines have written all about this little dog, little Tinkerbell. So-called pet belongs to an heir of one famous hotel all over the world. Wearing many designers dog outfit, shiny jewelleries, and all that maintenance.

With the owner partying all night, all days, I was just wondering… is Tinkerbell an accessories or a friend? As a variety in exchange of Prada bracelets or just a friendly pet?

Nowadays, I’m thinking, pets are not friends for sharing your broken hearts or keeping you happy when you’re down anymore. They’re more like ‘something’ to upgrade your lifestyle thanks to that heir. We brought our pet with us everywhere, all bling-bling and stylicious. People is more like ‘aww.. he’s very cute!’ rather than ‘did you bathe him yourself?’ ‘did you feed him yourself?’…

We should really think this starting from our self. After all that day we showed our so-called pet to our clique, did we bathe or feed our own dog our self? As I read from some books about pets, in this case a dog, they know who their ‘mother’ is and they expect us to care about him as they care about us when we’re feeling down. They have feelings too, they’re sensitive just like us, they cried (although sometimes we didn’t know the difference between they’re crying or their eyes been visited by dust) just like us when we left them all alone. And what did most of us do? When we’re alone and sad from broke heart, we shared to them, we cried to them, they listen, they care, they do things they hope that’ll make you laugh. Yes, we bathe them our self and we feed them. The time we got our self a partner, we left them home with our maid to clean their poo, to bathe them, to feed them, when we’re out having a classy dinner and action movies. It’s ok to left dead things like toys or dolls (if you still play them) behind when we’re on a date, because they’re toys, they don't have feelings (Toy story 2 just exaggerating! Duh!) but dogs, they knew when we left them all alone, what can they do? Pretend nothing happened and just be happy for you? Yes, they can only do that. Hoping that someday you and your date and him will be a very happy family together (that is until your baby come along). And if your date’s going pretty well, they can just assume that your maid is their new ‘mommy’!

Lots of love!

5.05.2007

Plagiat



It comes from :

Pla.gia.rism. n
1. Copying what somebody else has written or taking somebody’s else’s idea and trying to pass it off as original
2. Something copied from somebody else’s work, or somebody else’s idea that somebody presents as his or her own

As you all can read, it’s the behavior of people copycatting others. Who doesn’t? All the people in this world subconsciously perform plagiarism on their daily routine. We have to see it from the smallest amount of people’s behavior. Like breakfast for starter. Whoever starts a set of bread and milk for their breakfast did well, since large amount of people’s followed. And don't get me started with fashion movement worldwide! See, all the people adopt plagiarism (by all means, literally all! Kids, teenager, adult, oldies, and all professions too!) and they think they’re the trendsetter? There’s nothing in this world’s still original, want to talk about the creative department? Yes, they made all the original ad (and creative too!), but call me and judge me if they didn’t have the source of their idea. Ambience of one social campaign for smoking, they made this smoking room door shaped like coffin. It’s original, yes; nobody ever used it for any ambience nor ad. But still, the source is the coffin itself, a place where they put the dead inside. Still confused with what I’m telling you? Forget it, don't read the rest!

Fashion industry is full of plagiarism. Why do you think they sell fake Louis Vuitton everywhere and for 1/10 from LV price tags? But lets not go there, it’s too far. What about fashion industry in Indonesia? What happened to our local distro? I’ve heard their designs have been stolen by huge local company, changed the color a bit, printed in large amount of numbers, sell it through local hyper mart for half price, and of course, the company made a huge profit (since they don't have to hire a graphic designer and let’s face it, it’s very cheap to make a t-shirt with poor quality like most company used). No one can do anything. They changed the design right? (although only the color and maybe a little on the designs) can’t sue ‘em! Yes, the little t-shirt business people can’t do a thing even though they feel bothered. And their income is not as good as before too, that’s why a lot of them goes bankrupt.

Me, on the other hand, trying to do a little t-shirt business like the little people. I’m not sure it can grow big, but what the heck! I’m gonna try it! Looking that people’s cannot free them self from plagiarism, I took the hint and made my own brand called plagiat. (yes, it’s Indonesian for plagiarism). Hoping that huge numbers of people cannot free them self from my tees ;-) (keep buying!)


(p.s the colour's actually shocking pink! false technically)

On why I use eye as the logo of plagiat is very simple actually and I’m sure lots of people will understand (I may already told some). You saw and you copy! Of course you copy with your eyes right? ;-) and I picked shocking pink?! For guys t-shirt?! The way I see it, there’s no more boundaries between both genders. A lot of stores sell various polo or t-shirt for man with the color pink (either soft pink or pink), and many too, wore them (although mostly, maybe, sexually challenged). And besides, pink is hot now! ;-)


p.s. the word, sexually challenged, I don’t mean it the negative way. Of course there’s nothing wrong by being that. It’s normal (for me at least)! I wrote challenged because, of course, facing the negativity from people who like to judge, families, friends, colleagues, cultures, and maybe the burden of being the first born? Who knows... it’s challenging! It’s fun too! ;-)

Lots of Love!

5.01.2007

Don't Try to Drive a Ferrari if You Can't Handle the Wheels



That is actually not really an accurate and a stupid saying for one person to say. Cause as we know, when we love something so much, in this case a Ferrari, we can’t handle them the first time, but we can learn to drive them. Why else they give us a handbook? Unless, if the saying goes like what Gabrielle Solis said in one episode of Desperate Housewives “don't try to hijack a Ferrari if you can’t drive them” (take a careful attention at the word ‘hijack’). In a haste situation like that, you have to know how to drive it without the handbook; you’re stealing for Christ sake, run before the owner comes to you! If you drive it so recklessly, of course the Ferrari would prefer its owner!

Yes, the saying was supposed to go for relationships.

For two single persons to know and understand each other, it takes times, a hell lot of time. Pieces by pieces we add until finally we see the big picture. We know them and they know us at the end. This is where we finally become a master driving a Ferrari.

For one single person to come into other relationship as the third person, you’ve got to know how to please one until that one finally made her final choice at you. (It’s not that I suggest people to become the third person! Don't slip into other relationship, it’s bad!) what I’m saying was, if you like her so much and you think you’re much better than her current boyfriend, you can show her that you got what it takes to handle her, it’s her choice at the end anyway. But if you can't handle her the way her boyfriend does, you end up humiliating yourself! (Like Zach young in the movies!)

But I’m not surprise how a Ferrari can be so cocky.
So bye-bye Ferrari! ☺

Lots of Love!